Anxiety & Depression

Posted on 14 January 2018 by Michael Dahl

About last week’s minor implosion and a side note.

So I write about my mental health a lot. Obviously, I write posts for this blog. I also make references to it on Intellectual Roundtable as well as regular side comments on my Facebook feed. Last week, I had a minor implosion. While, for the most part, I’m not embarrassed by what I share — Read More

Posted on 7 January 2018 by Michael Dahl

“Oh no, I’ve said too much.” Feeling vulnerable.

I know it must seem like I share my struggles with Depression and Anxiety constantly.  I share it here on “Prone to Hope.”  Sometimes I write short snippets about it on my Facebook feed.  I talk about it regularly as well. One thing I want to make clear is that while I regularly contend with Read More

Posted on 28 December 2017 by Michael Dahl

A few days of terror.

Several days ago I wrote rambling, grammatically-challenged, mishmash blog post. It was incomprehensible to even me. I leapt from negative self-talk, to worries about a backslide on my mental health, to sharing some feelings about the destructive politics of the day. I can create plenty of disasters when I’m in a bout with a panic Read More

Posted on 23 December 2017 by Michael Dahl

the bouys of Friday

Thanks to writing, even though my first, second, third (and sometimes more) drafts suck, I let each slight improvement stay on my blog until I reach the next closest thing to what I wanted to convey. Writing helps me process what’s going on in my head, and the early despair and urgency in my head Read More

Posted on 22 December 2017 by Michael Dahl

A long string of sadness.

I’ve experienced considerable sadness on likely more than half of the days since Franco died. Of course a good deal of sadness comes with the territory of loosing a cherished pet. More sadness comes attached to that when loosing him was partially the result of me dropping his leash, allowing him to run into the Read More

Posted on 21 November 2017 by Michael Dahl

Tiredness versus intense pain. I’ll take the tiredness any day.

Readers of this blog know that I often get annoyed with the tiredness — sometimes fatigue or lethargy — I feel because of the medications I take to tame my demons. The demons’ names are Anxiety and Depression. The other day, I decided to look back at the physical manifestations of their presence. What’s the Read More

Posted on 19 November 2017 by Michael Dahl

Prone to hope turns 100.

Just the other day I realized that Prone to Hope hit a milestone. I have posted 100 entries regarding Depression and Anxiety since the blog began with the post “Through the panic” on March 28, 2015 (written three days after the actual experience). While the marker provides me an opportunity to reflect on my hard Read More

Posted on 29 October 2017 by Michael Dahl

A Nicety and a Transparent and Anxious Guy.

I love it when people wish me a “Happy (fill in the day).” It’s fun when someone greets me with something like, “What do you think?” or “What’s the most interesting thing you’ve done this week?” And while I can never remember what happens on my weekends, I appreciate the Monday greeting question, “What were Read More

Posted on 24 October 2017 by Michael Dahl

To be alert and anxious or calm and tired all the time.

I’m stuck. I’m stuck in a situation many people who take medications for Anxiety find themselves in: to be alert and anxious or calm and tired. (As my mental health med doctor says, “It’s all a cost-benefit analysis.”) A little over a week ago I reported that I had tinkered with a medication I take Read More

Posted on 13 October 2017 by Michael Dahl

Med experiment begins with success, ends with partial failure.

Perpetual tiredness and less than sharp reactions to stimuli have become part of my norm. This is the trade-off I’m saddled with to get to experience less Anxiety on a regular basis. That said, for the past several months there’s been less ambient stress in my life. So I decided to do a one week Read More

Posted on 8 October 2017 by Michael Dahl

Find joy.

I just lost my pup Franco. I’m grieving. The wonderful things my friend did that brought me immense cheer are currently making me incredibly sad because of the loss. Even small things, like eating peanut butter or even seeing the jar on the shelf, bring a lump to my throat because Franco knew what opening Read More

Posted on 17 August 2017 by Michael Dahl

What would you tell a friend to do?

This is an unfortunate follow-up from this morning’s blog post. Let me offer a two-sentence recap: This morning I had a longer bout with Anxiety than usual. Writing (and a bit of yoga) helped calm me down somewhat, so I could start my workday. That accomplished, I successfully got a major project out of the way Read More

Posted on 17 August 2017 by Michael Dahl

The best thing I can do right now is write.

One of the pieces of advice that my therapist gave me for dealing with Anxiety is simply to acknowledge It exists. But the thing is to not see It as in you, but imagine It’s beside you. I try to do this — sometimes successfully — but usually the best thing I can do is Read More

Posted on 25 July 2017 by Michael Dahl

Michael’s “normal” but really wishes he could be better.

Yesterday, my mental health med doctor and I arrived at the conclusion that at least for the next six months how I am normally is how I’ll be until we check in again in January. My med cocktail will stay the same. I am encouraged to continue seeing my therapist as needed. And, how I Read More

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