• between normal and hell

    Several weeks ago I was working on a blog post entitled, “The Things That Scare Michael Dahl.” Bats were on the list I had started to form — I’ve had many scary personal encounters with bats.  The dark was on the […]

  • my meds have stopped working

    my meds have stopped working

    The mental health medication cocktail that I’ve been relying on for the past several years to keep me normal has stopped working. So that sucks. But I also know that this is often part of life for someone committed to […]

  • nearly six weeks of hell

    nearly six weeks of hell

    Next week I am finally getting the professional help I need to work through my latest bout with Anxiety and Depression.  I can’t wait. By the time of my appointment it will have been six weeks since this hell began.  Six weeks!  […]

  • brick-brain, frayed-nerves, drenched shirts

    brick-brain, frayed-nerves, drenched shirts

    I hate it when Anxiety freezes up my mind.  It’s like my brain goes from being a functioning (happy) organ to a brick of cement … frozen, immobilized, in hyper-defense mode, preparing for the world to attack me. Sometimes the […]

  • the days the music dies

    the days the music dies

    The deck was stacked against me.  As a child I had several knocks to my noggin … a couple pretty severe.  I grew up poor with my brain seeped in the chemicals of toxic stress that often accompany poverty.  And […]